Ok I guess I should get a new primary doctor here in Tampa and go see him but I'm just so lazy when it comes to that kind of thing! I am really tired lately. I don't know what it is. It's not like I'm falling asleep while driving or anything that extreme. I'm not even super tired, just tired enough to always feel like I need a little more rest. It has not effected my ability to live life or do my job, which is a good thing. It is just effecting my attitude toward everything. I just keep having this feeling of "why bother" all the time. I eat just as good as I always have, I even take my daily multivitamin. So I don't know how it could be a physical problem. On the mental side of things I have a great girlfriend, things are running smoothly with the kids at home and I'm doing some kind of fun adventure with them every week. How could I be getting depressed?

The only thing I can think of that would be messing with my mind is work. I love my job. I love the people I work with. Admittedly we have been doing a web update and the company I have to work with has been a royal pain. but that should not really be the problem. I think I just need a break. Maybe I'm not supposed to be a radio guy. Maybe I'm not supposed to be a youth minister. I don't really know what I'm supposed to do but I know that I'm just getting by right now.

I was thinking about it on my in this morning. I see the way Carlos, Jamie, Olivia and Abby are about their air shifts. They are always thinking of new angles and promos. New ways to do interviews and get listeners involved. And I just don't have any of that. I don't know why. I want to do a good job. I want to be creative but I can't find my creativity any more. Where did it go?

I'm not going to get any answers here. Maybe it is something physical, just a little tweak in my system that has put everything off balance and makes me just a little off kilter which is throwing everything off. I don't know but I better fix it soon or I may be out of a job in a rotten economy!


Unknown said…
Aren't you scheduled for a youth group visit soon? Maybe it will help to reconnect with your job if you get to spend time with people who are part of your audience. And maybe you should take me to church.
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